Well, my baby gril had her 2 months shots yesterday and she is so miserable! I feel so sorry for her, she can't sleep, she's not hungrey, and both her legs are swollen where she got her shots. But she's doing a little better for now, and she hasn't gotten a fever yet, which is very good. I think she'll be fine. But on a happier note, I found a prom date for my senior prom at Johnson County High School. It's amazing I actually found someone willing to go all the way to Johnson County with me for just my prom!  Mom (Melody) got me the most beautiful dress and it fits me perfect, which I thank her for. I thank her for a lot of things, I know I used to talk so terriblely about her and I'm truely sorry for that. I realize now how much of a bitch I was to her and the everyone before I got pregnant. But things are different now, I've changed, I know people say that other people can't change, but thats not true, they can change if they really want to. And I really wanted to, I saw how awful I was and I wanted to change that. I know I can't change all the things that I've done to people in the past, and part of me wishes I could but the other part doesn't because if I changed it I would never be the person I am today. I've done alot of growing up since I found out I was pregnant, it was God's way of showing me that I was wrong, and by Him letting me get pregnant he also showed me the road that I was on, and that was to road that lead straight to death. God saved my life by giving me another life to nurture and care for! I thought it was the worst thing ever when I found out but then I realized that it's a gift from above. And I wouldn't trade anything in this world for my daughter and I never will! But any way, last night my mom kept my daughter and I got to go out and actually have a little bit of fun with out having to worry about her, because I know my mom and dad will take care of her to the full extent. But I really hate to leave mom with that burden of taking care of My child but she offered to and I decided it was time that I had a little fun because I havn't been out of the house without her since the day that she came home from the hospital. Which I know is crazy, but it's the truth! I think I might go out agian tonight after my hair appointment but I'm not sure because mom has to work agian tomorrow , we'll just have to wait and see what happens, and if someone calls me or not!  Well I'm going to go and feed my girl and I'll try to post tomorrow if I get a spare minute! God Bless!!!

Love Always and Forever,

Jessica Shaunta Eller

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Baby Xandria Raeh Eller

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